Radio Signals

I had another dream about an old friend. He keeps popping up in my dreams and it's always really sexual. I was in a living room to this blue home and I believe I just moved. I had neighbors all around me and lived in a suburban neighborhood. My neighbor's were really close, it was like I lived in a complex but it wasn't, it was a home it's just all the houses were extremely close for example three houses in one gated area. I would leave my house and one night I went to ride my bike and I ended up smoking or going to go get some smokes or something and I cant remember where I was but I ended up seeing my old friend. I believe he seen me on my bike and he knows I was smoking, seen me smoking. He asked me if I wanted a ride back home. So I went in his car and then he asked me where I lived. He had longer hair, it was cut up to his chin, was wearing a blue T-shirt and was a little bigger then I ever remember him being, then I've ever seen him. He picked me up and started to ask me where I lived and what I was up to. I told him I just moved and I live around a lot of people, they're really friendly and nice. I told him I think hes going to like it. He said, "ok cool, I can't wait to see" he was excited and then he said, "before we go you want to smoke something with me?" I said,"sure" He parked his car and we got high like we used to. All of a sudden all I remember was that he put his arm over my right shoulder faced me really fast and I can't remember how it all happened but it was like he was already just inside me. I didn't see how it happened but he was having sex with me. I don't think I ever had a dream about having sex with this person. I think I have one time but it was very brief, a long time ago and I can't remember much. This was different because that dream he penitrated me and that was it or the most I could remember but it wasn't like we were having sex. In this dream it went on for awhile, he was staring me in the face and was grabbing me. He was in control and moving very fast up and down, looking at me directly. I could see his face very vividly and his body. I even told him, "I can't believe we're having sex" he said,"oh I know.. don't worry just do it. Don't think about it." We then went to my house. He said he loved it there and he was already making friends with the neighbors. He's very extroverted so he talks to a lot of people and I don't so. I told him,"I don't really talk to my neighbors I just kind of say what I have to to them and they know I don't talk a lot. They kind of leave me alone and I leave them alone" He's very extroverted and I knew he'd be their friend, I knew he'd talk to them. We were listening to music and hanging out. He said, "I'm going to go to the store, I'll be right back ok? I want to get us some things." I said, "ok." He gave me a kiss, I don't know why he was looking at me and then he was wearing red. He was treating me like he was with me, my boyfriend. It felt like he used sex to treat me like I was now his. So he leaves and goes to get things. I turn on the radio and there's all these love songs and when I watched him leave the music,.. I wish I could remember the lyrics to the song because.. well I remember one of them, so he was leaving and walking to the truck and then that song came on that goes, 'whats your name? Who's your daddy? Is he rich like me' and then it continued 'tell it to me slowly, tell you what, really need to know it's the time for the season of loving' he took off and when he drove away slowly the 'duun duun dun ahh' part was going on. So that song came on and I looked around the living room and I thought 'the radios are definitely listening in on me and my life because that was just too perfect. The next song that came on was some metal music. He was gone and it was very agro very I'm pissed off. I think it was Metallica or something I can't remember what song but it was a very aggravated song which had nothing to do with love. I thought, 'that's how I should be feeling and I believe that's how I do feel.' It was playing metal for awhile and I was just laying down high listening to the music. I got up slowly, at the same time I did another song came on and it was another oldies like song but sounded more like a modern song but it was just inspired by oldies. The song was very lovey dovey, I can't remember what it sounded like but was a song I've never heard before. If I were to write it down it would be a new song because I believe it was just a song that isn't in existence. It was really good, the guy in the song was singing about how beautiful everything is and his focus was on the listener. It was a Beatles style and saying things like everything with you is so beautiful life is so amazing and I can't wait to see you all that sort of stuff but was modernized and played fast and was really good. Was listening to it, was memorized and then a quarter of the way through the song I seen the truck pull up and it was him. I could see him in the truck and he was lip singing to the song. I realized he may be in love cause he's singing the song but then remembered there was metal music playing before that. I thought it must be a different feeling because he's driving while I was laying on the couch and I believe it was a way different feeling. He started walking to the door and the song was playing and in that moment when I realized the song was playing while he was coming in I remembered how I felt the radio was setup to play a part in my life, I was possibly being watched and signaled. I had my eyes wide and was terrified of him. I just told myself I need to hide it and pretend that I'm actually in love. He came in the door, he hears the music and he smiles. He just looks so in love, I look at him and I smile too. I say, "welcome back" he says,"I was listening to that" I say,"yeah do you like it, it's good huh" he says, "yeah I love it" then comes up to me and hugs me. He brings in whatever he got then sits on the couch, lays back and looks at me.